I realized the other day that it had been quite some time since I last updated. I was feeling sort of guilty. Then it dawned on me, no news can be good news. There isn’t much going on truthfully. When I am not spending time with my little girl, I am trying to catch up on laundry and house cleaning, In between sleeping the days away I am also still working. There are also tons of appointments and scheduling conflicts. I am not sure how my sanity has remained in tack.
It helps, however, that the little one has been such a huge helper. She has taken on so much responsibility. She’ll clean her room without being nagged. She’ll straighten up the living room and even lets me cat nap while she plays quietly. My husband has been wonderful, too. When he isn’t at work, which is a lot of the time, he is grocery shopping, cleaning, and taking the little one to soccer practices. They have been amazing.
What’s not amazing? This first trimester for sure. I am just so tired. And nauseous. Everything makes me sick. A lot of things that I used to think had lovely scents just gross me out. I am thankfully coming up to the end and entering my second trimester very soon. Needless to say I just can’t wait for that.
I saw my diabetic specialist yesterday and she was very pleased with how well managed my blood sugars are. She praised my before and after meal numbers and encouraged me to keep at it. That was nice because I was starting to freak out a bit. A few times my numbers had been quite elevated. 200-300 range. Of course I acted quickly and got it back down but I cried because I thought, “This is it! I’ve damaged my baby!” I managed to admit that to the doctor who really set my fears at ease. She says that there are always highs and lows but it’s those consistent highs or lows that we need to worry about. If once in a while I spike because of miscalculations or I have a cold that I shouldn’t freak myself out. It’s okay.
Those words were just what I needed to hear.
Pregnancy is a worrisome time for every mother. Add diabetes and, well, I am just a constant ball of wreck. I just have to remember that I am human. Stuff happens. But if I continue doing what I need to do then there isn’t anything to fret about. I really want to enjoy this pregnancy. Enjoy preparing my little girl to be a big sister. Cherish all the time that I have before new baby comes. If I spent every waking moment afraid then I would just be miserable and that is not how I want to bring a baby into this world. Overall, I left the appointment feeling very confident in my diabetes management.
It’s a nice feeling.
In other news I am already craving things. This has been rather annoying.
For a bit it was chicken. I couldn’t get enough. Now, yuck. Currently it’s anything watermelon flavored, Mexican food, and I am also wanting a lot of fresh fruits and veggies which I can’t complain about. That’s a great craving.
I hope all of you are well. I am trying to be very present here in the Diabetes Online Community. I think once I fully wake up from this first trimester I will be around a lot more. :)
Smile, there’s always a reason to.