There’s a lot going on.
It’s known that I have been MDI (Manual Daily Injections) since forever. I hadn’t known much about insulin pumps when I was first diagnosed, and didn’t care to learn much even years after. It seemed like it would always be out of reach, maybe? Plus, shots took long enough for me to get used to, at the time I couldn’t imagine being attached to something 24/7. Yes, diabetes is always there but not everyone can see it. Another factor in determining whether or not I’d consider an insulin pump was that I didn’t always have insurance and those nifty little devices don’t come cheap.
So I just told myself, “Why fix what isn’t broken?”
If MDI was working for me then that’s what mattered. Then recently I actually got to hold a pump, ask tons of questions, and basically reevaluate how beneficial getting a pump would be for me. It would mean better control of blood sugars, better A1c’s, and overall it would aid in a much healthier lifestyle. My husband and I started filling out paperwork, calling this person and that one, getting in touch with a few company’s and you know what we found out? It IS attainable. I was approved for an Omnipod insulin pump. Why this particular model? Well, that’s a post for another time. The important thing is that a few loose ends need to be tied before I can officially call myself a pumper but the picture is clear and I am almost there.
I never thought I would be in this position. It is the most exciting thing to happen.
This insulin pump wouldn’t just be helpful to my health though it would also ease some of the emotional strains this disease puts on me. Yes, I would have this pod type thing on me constantly, something no one could see, but I wouldn’t have to worry anymore about nasty looks when I pull out a syringe and a vial at a restaurant. Because even though I don’t care what people have to say, that empowerment doesn’t stop the chatter, or criticism. It doesn’t stop my daughter from feeling like she has to protect me from the judgmental eyes. More importantly I would be in control of this disease.
Overall there are a lot of factors making this decision very appealing.
I cried when my husband and I spoke about the possibilities. I have wanted to feel normal for such a long time now and I believe, for me, getting this pump will get me just a little bit closer to that.
Maybe it all seems so silly. Basing so much on this little device but to me it is everything. As of right now there are a lot of things working out in my favor and I’m just hoping it continues to go smoothly. By the end of this year, maybe even sooner than that, I could be on a whole new adventure with diabetes.
Wish me luck in this process.